I woke up in the morning, ready to go play with the kids and enjoy a beautiful summer day. Perhaps we would have a picnic or maybe go to the pool. We could take a walk to the river and skip stones...it all seemed so wonderful in my mind.
Then I woke up and realized that it is January, 2010, not June, 2009. It is not summer. I missed summer. Sometimes, I honestly feel as though I am in a time warp. Spring and summer 2009 disappeared from my life. I missed them and sometimes I forget that they have passed. While the rest of the world experienced spring and summer one day at a time, the minutes seemed like hours, but the days and weeks flew by for me. I honestly don't know where that time went. I do have memories, but some are cloudy, others unpleasant, and others are wonderful, but they seem almost like a dream from another time.
So today I am not spraying the plants (or the kids) with the hose, I am looking at the snow-covered mountains out the window and wishing I could get the time back that I lost. As we all know, we can't get time back, which is why it is so important to use it well.
Though I may not remember it, I know it happened, and the results are the reason I am writing this blog today, so it couldn't have been all that bad. :) Perhaps in my dreams I will get my spring and summer back, and in the meantime, I will be counting down the days until my tulips start to peak out and say hello.