Wednesday, August 11, 2010

. . . . . . Weighty Matters

It is probably good that I didn't write a post yesterday, as I was an emotional basket case most of the day. My apologies to anyone who happened to call or stop by, and therefore became a victim of my tears and blubbering.

Let's just say that it takes me a day or two to get a grip when reality strikes and I realize that there is no such thing as a "fix" to my issues. I am so ready to be better, to be well, to be whole, but that day will have to wait. Until then, the "hard" days will happen from time to time. I guess that is life.

I have finished some of my meds, so I have fewer side effects to deal with now, meaning I should not have as many dizzy spells, balance issues, headaches and mood swings. That is great news.

My eye is looking great, all things considered. I cannot believe how quickly it is looking better. It is still not functioning the way it will, but progress is happening.

After surgery last week, they gave me back the gold weight that was in my eye since last June. Strange to see this little piece of gold and realize that it was part of me.

Notice the curved shape, which was supposed to fit the contour of my eye.
My kids were hoping it would be worth a lot of money, since it is 24 carat gold, however, according to the price of gold today (which is near an all-time high), I figure it is worth about $70. We could melt it down, but it would hardly be worth the effort, I'd rather keep the gold weight as it is. It is part of my history, part of me. And, I KNOW that one day, photos, eye patches and gold weights will be the only physical reminders of my challenges. So, I better keep it, just for proof. :)


wjmom said...

Huh! I bet you paid a lot more than $70 for that little beauty! :)

You're still in my prayers. Sending lots of love your way!

Karen said...

My friend, you are so courageous and brave. Hang in there. You are in my thoughts and prayers.


Anonymous said...

Your eye does look better and better, Jodi. Soon it will be as pretty as the other one.

You know, your life is hard. You are strong and brave. Never worry about telling the truth about what you are going through. The truth will make you free. And will probably help the rest of us, too.

royalblu23 said...

You're such an amazing person, Jodi! So glad to know you!

Amy Barclay

britt said...

thanks for sharing the continued updates. I can't believe that bar was IN YOUR EYE.
I really need to come see you. Hopefully I can find a few hours soon.
You are doing amazing and your perspective is unbelievable.
love you

Anonymous said...

i know i know!!! Make it into a charm! :) Hey i have seen stranger things on chains....
It will always be part of your past... A good reminder, miracles do happen.