What to say, what to say? Many friends and neighbors have asked me in the last few days how I am doing. Right now I am not quite sure what to say. Am I getting better, yes, I am still getting better. But do I feel well? Hmm, not so much right now.
This week I have been plagued by terrible headaches all week. They have made it difficult for me to get "good" rest and my whole body is achy and in knots. Not fun. My wonderful hubby, Tolan, is giving me back massages daily, to try and release the tension in my body. Thank heavens for Tolan, he is my ideal man, in so many ways. He will always do whatever he can to help me, from massage, to putting me to bed early and taking care of the kids, to insisting I get in the hot tub and relax (which I always enjoy). So, without my amazing spouse, I am sure I would be feeling much worse. As it I am now, I am doing OK, but not as good as I'd like.
Friday was my hardest day in months. Part of the day was very good, and I had a great lunch visit from my dear friend, Noellee. We ate, chatted and reminisced. We will be friends forever, I just know it. :) In the afternoon, my parents came to visit, in town from Hawaii. I so looked forward to their visit, but I just didn't feel as well as I had hoped. We still had a good time together, but they could both tell I was suffering. Dad's magic hands worked on my back for a long time, and mom insisted I take a rest while she watched the kids. All of this definitely helped.
That evening Tolan and I were lucky enough to go with mom and dad to a dinner about the Polynesian Cultural Center and BYUH. It was a wonderful evening, at a wonderful couples' home. Everyone who spoke did a fantastic job and we could truly feel the Spirit of God in the room. BYUH and the PCC are truly "blessed" places, where the Lord is able to touch His children's hearts and minds. We were so glad to have been there. Sadly, I felt terrible the whole evening. It was my worst night in about 3 months. I hate to take heavy pain meds, but didn't have much choice that night, though they made me feel dizzy and "spinning" all night, without relieving much of the pain.
So, where does that leave me now? Well, I need to find some way to relax my body and get the rest I need so I can continue my recovery. My parents have a theory that a massage chair will help, so I am checking into that option. In the meantime, I am trying to go to bed early (trying being the key word) and praying for deep, restful sleep that will allow my body to heal.
Still, I am not upset, depressed or anything of the sort. I am blessed and my life is miraculous on a regular basis. So, though I may be having a rough spell, I still know that life is wonderful and I constantly feel surrounded by love. As my good friend Jason (jasonslifeisgood.blogspot.com) always says, "It is all about perspective" and I have been through enough to know that this is but a small blip on a wonderful, adventurous journey!