Some time ago, one of our LDS Church leaders gave a talk entitled, "Good, Better, Best" talking about the fact that there are so many ways we can spend our time these days that we need to separate our activities to make sure we are getting the BEST use of our time. There are many good things we can do. There are better things we can do, and there are the BEST things we can do with our time. This message is one I have taught to the youth at church over and over again. Now it is time I apply it in my unusual circumstance.
Truly, I feel I am doing at least good things with my time, but my strength is so limited these days, I am realizing I can't do all these things, even though they may be good. I need to limit myself to doing only the things that are the BEST use of my time, so I can preserve myself for the things that really matter.
I am having trouble doing this, because my nature is one that I want to do all the good things because I care deeply about others and everyone has done so much for me lately. I really want to repay all the kindnesses that have been shown to my family. But, I cannot. I cannot write the 500 thank you letters that need to be written. I cannot make bread, cookies, and dinner for all the families in need, especially those who have helped us this year. I cannot meet with every friend or talk to every young woman at church that I'd like to.
I am saying all of this more for myself than anything. This is a constant battle for me. For many, it is easy to say "Just take it easy and stop doing so much." But I challenge any of you to come to my house and tell me what to stop doing, making breakfast for the kids, doing laundry, making dinner?? What do I stop? Well, sadly, I am going to have to stop doing so many of the "good" things I love doing, because I simply don't have the strength and energy.
Still, I know this is not a bad thing, it is just hard for me because I am a "go-er" and a "do-er". The wonderful thing about life is that I have so many good things to choose from, that I could fill all my time doing good things. I feel like that means that my life is blessed. The challenge for me is to become a person who can tell the difference between the "good, better and best" options in life and do accordingly. So, if I do not answer every email, phone call or card, please know that I still love you dearly and I am thinking of you, but I only have a little energy and strength these days, so I am limited in what I can do. My "best" may not be perfect, but what I have goes to my dear husband and my sweet, wonderful children!
Thanks for your continued support and love. Without all of you, there would be many more tears and fewer smiles. You keep me going and keep my family going with your love and help!