Sunday, February 7, 2010

. . . . . . . . Humble & Help

Why is it that I lose my patience most with the ones I love?

My intentions are always to try and demonstrate love and the gospel of Jesus Christ in action, so why do I end up feeling so inadequate at being a good wife and mother?

How can I teach my children through example when my own example isn't good enough?

As I "feel better" and "return to normal", I realize I have been living in a bubble for a year. I haven't been the main caregiver, the responsibilities have been shared. Now I am feeling quite humbled and overwhelmed by the tasks that are again mine. A whole day of being Mom is often more than I can handle. I hope it will get better in time, but I am feeling discouraged by my daily "outputs" and "outcomes".

How can I become the kind of mother I want to be? How can I fit back into this critical role in my life without feeling like I constantly fall short?

I know we all fall short, I understand that is part of the gospel of Jesus Christ and the reason we all need the atonement of our Savior. So, what can I do to implement changes into my life that will have a positive impact on my family members? How do you stay patient, teach with love, demonstrate kindness and service and keep life in check? Please share your thoughts. My tears tell me I need all the help I can get.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi there! I haven't commented for quite some time, but I still read EVERY single post..and might I just add, that you have such a beatiful way with words! Really, I wish I could express myself as you do. Anyway, I'm pretty much the least patient person I (or my husband) knows, so I'm not much help there..sorry! I can't imagine how hard that is though with 4 kids and your "condition"....maybe that's why I don't have kids...yet! Hold your head up high, I think you're doing GrEaT!
-Nicole

britt said...

I admire YOu so much FOR YOUR PATIENCE. You have soo much more than I. I think that is a challenge for most of us moms!

Jason said...

Boy do I know where you are coming from. These last few weeks have been rough for me- in many respects, but it this respect included. I'm needing to remind myself all day as I lay uncomfortably in bed sick, that it's the little things. The little "wins." The little improvements. Patience is of course the key, and not one of my better qualities- however I'm now self-aware enough to work on this. I need to be patient with being patient. I'm almost a hopeless cause these days, but continue to look for the little things. Just a thought. Miss you a lot :)
Jas

Melissa and Jessie said...

All I can say is, I feel like I lose my temper all the time, and I don't have a very good excuse for it. I understand the discouragement, but that IS the beauty of the gospel...you can start fresh tomorrow and try it again.

Pam said...

My goals are lower than yours, so I reach them and feel good about most of my parenting. Perfection is not my strong suit. I just as person doing my best and letting go of the rest.

wjmom said...

You're a perfectionist, Lovely Lady! It's time to let go of the small stuff. A clean house? Small stuff (within reason, of course). Handouts for your lesson on Sunday? WAY small stuff!

Celebrating Daven's clean room. BIG deal. Big.

Give yourself lots of credit. Your husband and children adore you, and they are lucky to have you--just ask them!

Aundrea

Nichole Giles said...

Honey, sounds like you need a break. A girls night out or a lunch date or something--just a minute away to just be Jodi. Sounds impossible, I know. And you might not want to break away because you feel like you've already missed so much.

But you still have to take some time to be you--even for an hour. You're trying so, so hard to take care of everyone, including your physical self. But what about your mental and emotional self?

Take some time. You'll be amazed the difference a few hours can make. This is my advice. It's my personal means of survival.